Shocking – I have not posted anything in more than two months, and the year is fast coming to an end. Just last week my office building put up its Christmas decorations, and this morning I heard Christmas tunes in the building muzac. What is going on?
A part of me is not as inspired to write. I admit I am coming to a confused stage in Hong Kong. I am trying to love life here as much as I did four years ago, and yet something about these four years of excitement and adventures have also left me a bit tired. Since my falling fita, I have been thinking a lot more about me just pre-Hong Kong, and have been reading my old diaries from 08-09.
My frame of mind was very different then, and I can see easily why it was that I came to moving (the initial reason for blogging), no matter how sudden and seemingly out-of-the-blue it was. I really needed a drastic change in my life to help me feel myself again after so much sadness and stress. Something inside me pre-Hong Kong was dying or had gone dormant. What that was I cannot say, but it was something that just fed me the energy to live life normally.
So packing everything up to go to the other side of the planet on a seeming whim made sense – jumping into all this newness and challenging myself in new ways drove new life into me. I was then inspired to seek out a sort of regularity, starting with a gym membership, then an apartment, and finally a job (which I truly adore). I was in a relationship for almost 3 of those 4 years, and started to become a homebody, though I was not sure if I was really “home” yet.
Anyhow, after the relationship ran its course, and after I came out of my post-relationship introversion, followed by this summer’s great loss, I’ve started to come out again in search of exploration and excitement in this city that never lacks of either. It has been wonderful, especially as I become close to friends here in a way that I hadn’t in my first four years.
And now here we are, on the verge of Thanksgiving (which I still celebrate here in Asia), with holiday songs and holiday cocktail parties all around, time it just flying so fast!
So what’s the point of this post? Just a rambling, and perhaps a minor apology. I’ve been out and about living Hong Kong life with yet another pair of eyes now – not as the wide-eyed newcomer, not as an acclimatized homebody, but more as a seasoned resident at 4.25 years, if I’m allowed to say so. So forgive these gaps – I’ll try to catch the blog up with my happenings soon.