I had not written about the tough emotions that once consumed at least 50% of my days, but I was recently watching 60 Minutes (it broadcasts on Pearl in HK), featuring an interview of Liam Neeson. The actor talked about his loss of wife Natasha Richardson for the first time and I thought his summary of grieving was simply so apt:
“It hits you. It’s like a wave. You just get this profound feeling of instability. The earth isn’t stable any more and then it passes and it becomes more infrequent, but I still get it sometimes.”
This is so true. While this “wave” hits me so much less now almost 9 years later, I still feel it every so often when something hearkens me back to a memory of Mom. I do remember how it hit me so much more regularly at first, and for such a long time. In my first months in Hong Kong over 4 years ago, I felt it on a daily basis. At that point, Mom had already been gone for almost 5 years.
Now we are approaching almost 9 years since Mom’s left Earth. My life (and I credit my time in Hong Kong) feels far more “normal” again and those waves are quite seldom – possibly just a few times a year, versus every day.
But that is loss, that is death, that is grief – it is life-long. It just gets easier somehow, but it stays.